• 2:00 am Musings •

Today at school, a strange question popped into my mind as I watched my classmates. 

Everybody clearly looked ecstatic to be awake at that time of day and obliged to take in some information about volcanoes or whatever. In fear of forgetting the unexpected and odd thought - for some reason - I scrawled it down on the back of my notebook:

"Do people in TV shows from the 60s - 90s see colors differently?"

School was definitely not fascinating or a place where I can ponder on how intriguing little details are - I sort of realized that by now - but tv shows and their vintage feel have given me unrealistic expectations for high school. And life! 

And I don't just mean the actual experience, I mean..everything looks intriguing on those shows. The dim lighting with the slight orange tint; the way nothing was ever fully illuminated and super HD.

I love it.

This may border on sounding a little ridiculous and ignorant at the same time, but I just can't help feeling some sort of attachment and obsession - if you will - with the entire atmosphere depicted on those shows. 

It's like magic. My life should take notes.

To be honest, I'm still unsure as to what the conclusive message of this post is, but I thought keeping something I wrote at 2:26 in the morning would definitely be worth reading in the morning.

Keeping Promises & Rooftop Nostalgia

I want to go home to
tangerine sunrise and blueberry skies
to pomegranate sunset

I want to go home to
sitting on the roof,
cold lemonade in tall glasses
as we talked about books
and the universe
and passion

I want to go home to
playing your mix tapes long through the night
and falling asleep,
with nothing but the constellations for a quilt
You said we'd go places
Whispered warm descriptions as I closed my eyes
to believe that this would one day be my reality

I'm sure you've forgotten that.
Along with the scarlet flower crown
and the fireflies
and the photographs
and the secrets

I want to go home to
but I know that by now
you have outgrown the confines of your imagination,
clung on to the stories
packed a bag of fresh dreams
and began searching for the words
to write the story you have always craved to say

After all,
You always kept your promises

(I submitted this for Rookie's June theme of Nostalgia. Hope they love it like I loved writing it & I'd appreciate feedback)


♬ Songs That Remind Me of Harry ♬

Some of my favorite songs happen to be ones that Harry has tweeted or mentioned and since that was what they mainly had in common and I'm in an extreme playlist making mood, you get one more playlist today :)

♬ This Message Will Give Me a Heart Attack ♬

So, the other day, I listened to 'Heart Attack' by Demi Lovato and my first impression was wow this actually sounds really cool, despite the whole "poppy" feel to it, which I don't personally prefer. Her vocal range is very diverse and she's clearly capable of using it, but here's my slight issue with the song.

I know focusing on a "lesson" or "moral" that we get from a song almost sucks the fun out of it, but by repeatedly singing it throughout the day and having it stuck in your head you are essentially digesting a certain message. In the end, no matter what the case is, you will end up memorizing it or even subconsciously complying with it. And with this particular song, I don't want that to happen. I don't have a problem with the song as a whole, but certain bits came to my attention:

"When I don't care
I can play'em like a Ken doll
Won't wash my hair
Then make'em bounce like a basketball"

Um, what?
Girls generally complain and preach about guys playing girls too much and how it's not right, but by outright saying that when you're not particularly interested in someone, you play them like a doll is unbelievably hypocritical. I mean, especially after everything Demi herself has been through the past year I thought perhaps she wouldn't condone such a message. If you don't want people to play with you as a gender, don't play with them. It's simple and logical. 

I know that most civilized and intellectual people would look at this as just another pop song, because to be honest, picking on this song alone is pretty much isolating this particular artists when millions of artists have done that before her and will continue to do it after her. But I'm just using this as an example because it r-e-a-l-l-y gives off a message that I do not relate to or wish to oblige by.

"But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear high heels
But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear perfume"

Ah this also links to the previous time she said "Won't wash my hair".

I have one issue with this:

Young girls, teenage girls and women all should not feel obliged to dress up or look feminine simply because it is expected of them or desirable to the gender they are interested in or society as a whole.

You dress up for you.
You paint your nails for you.
You wear high heels for you.
You wear perfume for you.

I just don't like this recurring theme in most outlets in today's pop culture and media because it's giving young girls the idea that you do everything for people and this has the potential to develop into something much, much worse. Women lose respect or belief in themselves and don't know how to do something for themselves, instead feeling very selfish every time they do.

Ah, I have this problem with many forms of media, so that was just a little rant I wanted to share.

❀ Lovely Surprises ❀

The lovely Katy decided to get me "Every Day" by David Levithan for no particular reason because she is the most perfect, lovely human being ever. Ah, I'm an emotional wreck because; 

a. Her little notes on the wrapping paper and the inside of the book are just wow. 

b. She wrapped it herself. Aww.
c. The book is wonderfully wonderful.

I don't know why I'm telling you this, but it was just unbelievably sweet and I couldn't contain it.
Thank you, Katy x

Conformity. I hate it.

The world right now is trying to find a way to educate children to take the adults' place in the economies of the 21st century but here's what they're doing wrong. They're trying to face the feature with techniques that have long gone rusty.

In an attempt to succeed in the modern world they are alienating millions of children who don't see a purpose in going to school because the good old reason "If you study well, you get a degree and if you get a degree then you will get a job" is also quite pathetic and absolutely false in today's age. Of course, you're better off with a degree than not but it is most definitely not a guarantee of a job. Especially not if the route to getting that particular job is marginalizing what you believe is important.

The current system was conceived in the intellectual culture of the enlightenment and made for the economic circumstances of the Industrial Revolution. Schools are still modeled on the interest of industrialism and the image of it. They are made up of separate facilities, specialized into separate subjects and educate children in batches.

Who thought it was a revelation to categorize children in a way that implies the only thing they have in common is their age. Since when was their date of production the most important factor of their education?

Children are humans - in case the majority of the education board forgot that - and children function differently in different disciplines. Some work better than others of the same age group, some are most efficient during different times of the day or in groups of different sizes. We need to stop basing everything on a production line mentality. Children are not produce, they happen to be the future.

Recently, the rates of diagnoses of ADHD have increased rapidly. Wether you think ADHD is a legitimate condition or not is still quite debatable but the point is these children that assumably have ADHD are getting medicated routinely. They happen to have been brought into this world into the most intensely stimulating period in the history of the Earth; in the midst of computers, phones, adverts and 100s of tv channels. They are then later penalized for being distracted from the "boring stuff" by all that. So, let's punish them for being normal human beings?

This mentality is fueled by the celebration of conformity and standardized testing, which could lead brilliant people into thinking they're not because they happen to not excel or find their forte in Mathematics or Sciences. I'm focusing on those particular subjects because the arts happen to be the victims of this mentality because they focus on the aesthetic experience; the idea of all the senses operating at their peak. Resonating with this thing that you're experiencing. And these children that apparently suffer from ADHD are given anesthetics; which basically shut their senses off. How could you do that to a learning and exploring mind?

Now we have become divided into the academic (the smart) and the non-academic (the non-smart). This categorization is what puts a limit to divergent thinking. Divergent thinking is essentially:

  • The ability to see more than one interpretation to a single question.
  • and the ability to see more than one answer for a specific question.
  • This is called Lateral Thinking, according to Ed De Bono
A longitudinal study was carried out to test kindergartners based on a book about divergent thinking called Breakpoint And Beyond: Mastering The Future Today and if someone achieved a certain score, they would be considered a genius in divergent thinking. The results might not be what you expect; 98% of kindergartners scored at a genius level. 5 years later, the same students were tested and the percentage decreased, and the same happened even 5 more years.

This proves that 1. We all have this capacity but it mostly deteriorates as we get "educated". Why? Because we're doing it all wrong. Yes. Shocker, isn't it? You spend 10 years at school being taught that there is only one answer. And it's in the back of the book, but don't look, because that's cheating. Even though in the real world that's called collaboration..but hey, I'll turn a blind eye on that one.

Moral of all this is that we need to think differently about the human capacity and get over the categorizing of things; academic, abstract, theoretical. It's all a bunch of pointless and very much outdated theories that don't even benefit us in moving forward.

P.S: This was all inspired and based on the lecture by Sir Ken Robinson, that you can watch right here. Thank you for wording all my thoughts and enlightening me, properly for once.

World Press Freedom Day

So, today, Friday May 3rd 2013 is World Press Freedom Day.

As most of you know, this is an event organized by the UN - that celebrates it's 20th anniversary today - held to give the world an opportunity to:
  • "Celebrate the fundamental principles of press freedom;
  • Assess the state of press freedom throughout the world;
  • Defend the media from attacks on their independence;
  • Pay tribute to journalists who have lost their lives in the line of duty."

2013's theme is: Safe to Speak: Securing Freedom of Expression in All Media

I'm aware that it's not the best mind frame or attitude to say that something could never be achieved or that it's too farfetched, but if I say the obvious I wouldn't be the first to say it. And to be honest, even by saying what I'm about to say, I wouldn't be the first either. But still. I feel like it has to be said. I'd rather participate than be a full-time mindless consumer.

This is a color-coded diagram I found on The Guardian  that is trying to show the situation of freedom of the press worldwide. Looking at it quite briefly and generally I'd say that it's roughly accurate.

But here's my thing with this whole freedom of the press thing. That diagram could never be fully white. It could never even be fully orange or yellow. It's just not possible. By protesting to improve situations in most places, we are proposing to improve the countries that are currently yellow, because that would be possible, but taking China as an example, or even some arab and western countries, you could never completely free the press, because there's something going on in hindsight and that's the actual politics, relations and attitudes of different countries towards each other.

By freeing the press you are giving the people a free platform to communicate and share ideas with the rest of the country's citizens and on a larger scale; the world. Therefore you are now in a position of power. You are capable of changing an entire population's mindset if you sound like you know what you're talking about (and of course even when you actually know what you're talking about). But where does that put the government? Where is that privilege and control the government has over the people. By controlling the media and news outlets you are essentially controlling and monitoring what your country's finding out about itself and the world around it. And that is a very risky move from the government's perspective.

But on the other hand, if people are given permission to share their thoughts freely, what's more likely; that they'll rave and cause nothing but havoc and chaos or just be content to know that they're being heard?

I don't consider myself an expert on this, so I'm simply sharing thoughts..but yeah..that has always been very interesting to me.

Wow Clothes & Stuff

Wahey, hello.

This morning I had to wake up at 9 am to be on time for "Art Day" at school which is basically a day where GCSE students can finish their work off while the teachers assess and mark others' work. Overall, I actually managed to finish some things off which is very helpful with the whole de-stressing I'm trying to work on. I have my end of year exams in around 20 days..which is terrifying because I feel like I haven't revised enough and I just can't wrap my head around the millions of topics and units I have to finish off before the end of may. A g h. Kill me now.

But on the other hand, my mum found this store called "RedTag" which surprisingly - in comparison to 99% of the shops here - has some pretty awesome clothes and reasonable prices. That is pretty much sorcery. 


I thought I'd share somethings I bought;

I was surprised to find this vintage-looking, striped dungaree (or short-all or whatever you call them), they're made of such lovely, stretchy material. It's almost summer and we're off school in around a month's time and since I'm going to Morocco this holiday because we just recently moved to a beach house, I think it would be the perfect climate to wear it! (But most importantly, I'm mainly excited for the summer to take tons of photos, sketch everything I see and fill up my journal. A h.)

The t-shirt's a crop-top but I wanted it to be super loose so I got a larger size and now it's pretty much the same size as a normal T-shirt. The colors were so psychedelic so I just had to have it.

I am absolutely in love with sheer collared blouses so when I found these two, I melted.

And lastly, I found this sleeveless shirt that said "SAVAGE" and it had these gorgeous wings in the background. So um yeah. Dead. 

Overall, I consider that a successful shopping trip.