Wednesday, 25 September 2013


The other day at school, I was having lunch with Daniel and one of my teachers passed by and noticed the collage on the cover of my sketchbook. He asked if it meant something and I said it was open to interpretation. So he let me know just how accurate his interpretation could be by analyzing me through analyzing the people and the themes I have on it.

And it was scarily accurate.

I was stunned throughout and walked to class, dazed. The second I got there, I took out my laptop and started typing up everything he said because I just couldn't forget it. Nobody has ever actually looked into the things I watch, the people I idolize or romanticize to discover why I'm into them and what they mean to me and all the places they help me discover both in myself and in the outside world.

I thought I should gather my thoughts first and then write this post to convey just how much it affected me but I couldn't. I just don't know how else to explain the experience because I knew what I liked about each of the people/movies/themes I included in the collage but I never knew just how revealing and predictable I was being by putting them out there like that. I felt revealed but not quite uncomfortably just nervously. I wanted to open up to people but for my thought process to be so alive and vivid through my interests makes me feel too predictable...

I can't decide wether that's a bad thing or not and I don't think I'll ever know because it's just one of those things that I've always been unsure of. But this incident made me think.

That's all.

Monday, 23 September 2013

Wasting My Young Years

I have recently got some new music which isn't exactly new, just stuff that I've recently gotten into and thought since school has been keeping me too busy, I thought this would be great to talk about.

♢ London Grammar 
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Sounds like: BANKS, Jaymes Young & LoLo

♢ The Neighbourhood 
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Sounds like: The 1975, Lorde, MS MR, Daughter

♢ Arctic Monkey's 'AM' ♢
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Sounds like: The Strokes, The Vaccines, The Kooks, The Last Shadow Puppets

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Sounds like: astronomy, Bipolar Sunshine, The Colourist

♢ The Cab 
They've been my main obsession over summer so I felt like this list won't be complete without them.
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Sounds like: The Summer Set, Marianas Trench and Boys Like Girls

♢ Daughter 
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Sounds like: MS MR, Lucy Rose, The Neighbourhood, Bon Iver, Bastille

♢ Go Radio 
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Sounds like: Artist vs. Poet, The Summer Set, Anarbor

♢ The 1975 
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Similar to: Kodaline, Bastille, Haim

That's all for now, tell me what you think of them? 

Thursday, 5 September 2013

Rodarte || 2013

I usually enjoy curating and keeping tracks of all sorts of my interests here and there and despite me intending on theming my blog for the month, I have realized that high school pretty much means anything I'm interested in right now because I'm going to be a sophomore in a few days! But fashion is one of those things that I'd like to watch change and evolve and so I thought I'd get back  into Rodarte's collections and decided to give their latest season's fashion a look after a few months of complete obliviousness? Their color scheme's very quiet and makes me think of the conspicuously dark and mysterious; definitely inspired by gothic fashion that's basically a revolution against the colorfulness of the 1970s disco era. Despite the black and beige, the subtle reds and roses add some sort of femininity to it? Making it illusively seem less dark while actually making it mischievously mysterious.

Personally, I enjoyed the SS collection a whole lot more because of it's interesting patterns and the wonderful colors chosen. This dress (thing?) was also in a very pretty turquoise/black which - in comparison to this pastel pink/beige gave it a different feel; instead of the classy and gentle feel of this one, the other felt a lot more edgy, mainly because of the color combination and the slight changes in the design.

Overall, I think 2013's collections were gorgeous.

Wednesday, 4 September 2013

★ One Direction's This Is Us ★


I don't think I can formulate my thoughts well enough to write this post and this is just a boy band ugh. Okay, well it's c l e a r l y not 'just' a boy band to me so I shall put all the prejudices - that I've never cared about in the first place - of liking boy bands to the side and just enjoy the fact that this bunch of boys that I don't even know personally do make me happy. Regardless of how silly the whole One Direction thing is to everyone, it does make up this bit of my interests as a whole and they do infact quite simply make me happy, and after watching This Is Us today, I was happy. And to me that's all that matters.

The movie was ridiculous in the sense that it just got me so overwhelmed sometimes and almost played with my emotions. I am aware of the whole Management desires people's empathy and sympathy and emotions when it comes to selling a product because that's what this business is all about, but it was honest, to me. They were genuine and they always have been. I've watched their journey since they auditioned for the X-Factor 3 years ago, and the fact that I don't even live in the UK but in the Middle East and the fact that X-Factor isn't even on TV here, makes it funny to me. Because I just spontaneously thought I'd watch it online this one time and I came across these boys. And I was just sort of into it. I loved the Video Diaries, how sincere they were and mostly just how happy they were with how things turned out, how happy they were being together. And those good vibes are contagious. Because regardless of the value of whatever you watch or listen to or read, the way it makes you feel during and afterwards is what matters, I suppose? 

The main thing I love about them is how they're such jokers and they're just being their funny selves around each other and on camera and that just makes me want to watch their stuff all the time because ah just lotsofgoodvibesokay.

The boys are known for the best dancing skills ever.

Harry being an annoying little shit and refusing to pose properly. Ah he's lovely.

This wonderful sunshine sweeping the bakery used to work here before he joined One Direction and he mentioned how lovely it is to just be back here with the old ladies he used to bake with who know who he really is and he just seemed so happy to be back there, back in his hometown where everyone knew him as just Harry, not famous, not rich just the funny, charming Harry they've always known. And it was wonderful to see - not just with Harry, with all the boys - the fact that you'll always find your way back home and you're always just grateful to be back. It's a wonderful concept...

Another bit of the movie that got me really emotional was Zayn buying his mum a house to show her just how grateful he was for everything she's done for him and the fact that he's always said that to her and she might've taken it lightheartedly, not expecting things to actually work out the way they did and as fast and unexpectedly as they did. So it's wonderful and it made me so happy that he has always wanted to draw and paint on his walls but he never could in his old house, but since this was his house, he could do that and dedicated an entire room just for his art. This bit especially got to me because I know how it feels to want to paint everywhere around your room. To draw on every little inch of the walls and to just SPRAYPAINTEVERYTHINGOHMYGOSH so it made me really happy to see him find somewhere to do that and to see just how talented he is in and behind the whole hype!

I was going insane when I heard the first notes of the song but when it was in such great quality (duh, it's their movie ah sigh) and it was so artistically modified, like the guys would often change into these graphically designed drawings that made them look like super heroes AH I CAN'T EXPLAIN, I'LL JUST SHOW YOU OKAY.

Ah but there were many parts in the movie that made me just full on wish they weren't famous, because they couldn't do anything freely - and regardless of wether you think fame is the hugest perk possible and that they can't complain about not being able to do mundane things - it's still restricting and it can drive you crazy if you can't do anything casual. You can't walk around the shops. You can't go grocery shopping in peace. Every single one of your, your friends' and your family's moves is being watched all the time. It's insane! 

I loved that the movie wasn't glamorizing their lifestyle, it was real. They were tired and it wasn't all fun and games and despite the ridiculous amount of fun they have and the huge list of pros about the whole being famous thing, at the end of the day, it's still their job and it was see the amount of pressure that was put on their shoulders on a daily basis. The fact that they barely get to see their families and the way their families feel like there's something missing all the time. The way Liam's dad spoke of how nobody realizes that the mums aren't the only ones who get terribly upset, the dads feel like that too. And at the end he said that Liam was gone. And it's heartbreaking...

I can't stop that little voice in the back of my head that keeps telling me "this is what show bizz is all about" but these feelings are real. I'm surprised and grateful they haven't broken under the pressure... Because I look around and all I can see are the majority of child stars ending up in such horrible positions because of the amount of pressure placed on them on a daily basis, but I guess the way they're avoiding that breakdown is the fact that they're a group, not an individual, which means they keep each other sane and they support each other when one's feeling low...and that always helps, I suppose, especially when their fast paced lifestyle can get physically and mentally tiring.

Harry, in the movie, also said that he hated being referred to as the "famous guy" instead of "the nice guy" or "the funny guy" and that made me so upset, because I haven't ever referred to him as the famous guy, and I'm sure many people (fans and otherwise) don't think of him as the famous guy. When you get to such a personal level with certain icons in the media or just generally the "fame" business, you know who they really are to some extent. It's not hard to identify people's personas after seeing them on multiple occasions and I think Harry was talking about the fact that they don't get to just talk to the fans, they don't get to just talk to the people watching them on TV or reading some ridiculous (and fake) rumored headline about them and those people are left with the false image of them. I can understand why that's difficult and frustrating because people may go ahead and criticize you and sometimes just carry a false image of you; without knowing the smallest thing about who you truly are or what you're truly like.

Their fans on the other hand are so varied because they're such an enormous fan-base. There are people who see nothing in them but the pretty faces and I suppose that's alright but that gives off such a horrible image about fan-bases of this particular genre, making the genre itself seem so...vapid? And this takes me back to the discussion of "real music" which just pains me to even discuss anymore because it's so stupid. There's no such thing as real music, there's music that affects you on a personal level and there's music that doesn't speak to you at all. But this is all about you. Just you. Your music tastes don't apply to everyone ever in the entire community of humanity of the world. So, to be honest, there shouldn't be labels on pop culture based on the fan-base because:

  • An artist shouldn't be expected to take full responsibility for the actions or the behavior of their fan-base.
  • A fan-base as a whole should not be condemned to a single definition because of the select few that act immature or "crazy"
  • That particular select few should not be judged by reacting over-excitedly to something that makes them really happy. Who are you to comment or even give a shit if you're all too important for this kind of stuff.

I also saw a few posts on tumblr about the way we - as fans, co-creaters of this huge pandemonium and witnesses of the way One Direction blew up so ridiculously - would tell our future children about the boy band that was big in our time. So what Louis said really emphasized that, the fact that the way some people were witnessing the Beatles get super big, that's what we're doing. This is part of history because it's the pop culture of this generation.

So, I suppose this is all that I wanted to say about it as far as I can remember, therefore for now this is all :) I hope you all watched the movie (if you're interested, of course) and I'd love to know if you guys feel the same towards it as I do, because I'm done trying to talk about it all "ironically" because this isn't my "guilty pleasure". I enjoy it and I'm not embarrassed by it - never have been and never will be - because it makes me happy. I think I've said that about 20 times now, I'm sorry. 

G a h. Basically it was really awesome and wonderful and I'm really happy for the boys. I wish the stills were online already, because there are so many I wanted to add in. OH and I also got a picture with the boys' cutouts but I'm seriously in all dedication going to the mall tomorrow to shop and take a proper HD picture with cutouts :-) How splendid :-)

I think boy bands throughout the ages have always been the infatuation during the teenage years and I've never had a phase for boy bands when I was younger which wasn't weird, until I got into these guys. So it was quite interesting, and made me question wether this particular phase was something everyone went through and I'm not too sure about that.

Tuesday, 3 September 2013

♡Fashion Icon♡ - Grimes

Grimes (if you're not aware of who she is) is a Canadian artist, musician and music video director. According to critics, her music has been noted for its "atypical combination of vocal elements, as well as a wide array of influences" Her debut album was released on cassette which is pretty damn awesome! In April, she posted a written statement addressing her experience as a female musician in an industry rife with sexism and expressed disappointment that her feminist stance was often misinterpreted as anti-male. So all props to Grimes for being absolutely wonderful and honest.

Aside from all the reasons to love her, her obscure fashion adds to it all. I'm so excited ah okay.

To be honest, I actually couldn't concentrate on talking about her fashion and her hair because I wanted to just stop and talk about her thoughts and her ideas and her words and the way she looks at things, at least from what I can gather - being someone who doesn't know her personally and more importantly isn't her. But after almost 'investigating' her personally, and seeing the "art student" persona in her whenever she spoke about her art or her music, it felt like it linked a lot to the whole high school thing, especially that I can picture myself in a community of people who think in a similar manner to her? She also put herself out there on tumblr (very similar to Marina with Electra Heart) and became one of those types of celebrities too. So that's interesting!

But yeah, why not celebrate her fashion sense in addition to her mind?

I was watching an interview with her and she said that she doesn't really know what to say when people ask her about her fashion because it's something she doesn't really think through but that's something she's widely known for. And she said she doesn't wear buttons and zippers because she doesn't like the sense of confinement, everything has to be elastic. 

Her approach to fashion is so obscure and unexpected and I guess the shock factor excites people or something? I mean I don't think her style is surprising because there's a lot of obscure nowadays but I can tell when it's different and when it's different in a good way. And Grimes is the good obscure, the obscure that looks artistic. 

And sometimes, she just looks like an art student - like I said before! I just can't help not seeing that similarity every time I see her in a band t-shirt or a cargo jacket. It's almost like looking through the /tagged/soft-grunge on tumblr. The odd hair, the "indie" feel (I've been trying to avoid that word but for lack of better alternatives...ooh wait, 'alternative'! There we go!)

The way she layers things like jackets, huge over top things that I have no name for, t-shirts and plaid resembles the casual 90s fashion and can even be prominent in most tv shows of the time about high school students like Freaks and Geeks, MSCL and Daria! Especially with the whole cynical attitude and the evasions of the norm.

The picture on the left reminds me of the stereotypical photo with a couple thousand notes and a caption like "follow for more grunge" While the one on the left reminds me of a photo off Rookie Yearbook One that was like a bunch of ironic yearbook photos with catchphrases like "Most likely to succeed" beneath this photo. So I feel like she doesn't really try with fashion, it's just her personality showing through it? 

Something Grimes is equally if not more notable for would be her crazy hair; and by crazy I mean the weirdest hairline, fringe and colors and by weird I mean I still love it.

Opposite colors complement each other making it look almost mesmerizing. 

Her pastel 'grunge' hair is pretty much the usual lately.

 I feel like this entire post has been me trying to adapt her fashion to her thought process that she'd displayed in interviews or through her lyrics, because despite her music being something perfect to zone out to because you can't really distinguish the words unless you know them, it's exciting. It's almost coded?

Monday, 2 September 2013

✿ Records & High School Years ✿

When I was thinking of what to write for my first themed post, I couldn't get my mind off Ghost World. My favorite part was always when Enid gets one of those old blues records off Seymour and plays it when she gets home. When the first few seconds of the song begin (the song is Skip James's 'Devil Got My Woman') she's just stunned and speechless. She pauses and just listens. 

And that feeling was one I knew too well because I just got how intimate a song could be to someone regardless if you've listened to it various times or its presence in a memorable situation. The song could be the memorable situation. 

You just have to listen. You can't move or breathe or think because you're afraid it'll disturb everything; it'll distract you from some little thing you just can't miss. This type of music can create bonds - in fact this type of anything; could be a book or a poem or a movie that just holds some sort of meaning in your eyes. It doesn't even have to be a meaning, it could just be a vibe that it carried to you. A feeling you think you have never felt before. 

So when someone else is drawn to it in the same way or to the same extent as you are, a link is created between you wether you've known each other for years or a mere few seconds. And that's wonderful. There's nothing more magical than that phenomena. It changes your thoughts, it changes your outlook, it changes you in the smallest (or even largest ways), but these type of things have been very important to me throughout the course of my school years. No matter what age I was, every once in a while I would find something that actually moved me. Not in the ridiculously overused sense of the word, but the genuine one that I'm sure many if not all people have experienced.

One of those moments and perhaps the most prominent one has got to be one I've already shared here and that would be the book, Perks of Being a Wallflower and that sounds like what every other adolescent girl would say and I couldn't care less if that's what every other adolescent girl would say. I'm saying it and I mean it. I don't know to what extent it's meant to these people who have raved about the book after the movie was released. um. But I know about me, and therefore I couldn't care less about the others. The book itself has been incredibly important to me since the very first time I read it and differently every time I reread it and it's such an intriguing experience? It's almost motivating and magnificent at the same time. Has a fascinating impact and an almost self-help impact to it too. 

And I think that book particularly has given me a different outlook on high school. Last year when I read it, I felt differently to the way I felt about it this summer. This summer, it pushed me. It made me aspire for those beautiful moments that seem so unattainable and 'only in the movies', because why not. It's ridiculous to think there's no such things as friends so close you feel like you are both parts of one being. Ridiculous to think that there's no such things as imperfect nights where you do nothing but drive endlessly and feel so damn perfect at the same time, like nothing could be better, like nothing can change this feeling of infinite power that could never ever run out. If that was impossible, that would be  depressing and almost meaningless. And that's not the case. 

It's nice. It just is.

(PS. Might as well link every post I ever write to Perks, it always comes back to my head.)

Sunday, 1 September 2013

//Sep 1st: Mood Boards//


I had been planning to theme my blog for the duration of the summer and had lots of topics planned and mini mood boards curated but unfortunately, I had barely any wifi throughout the summer and despite that, I tried to post about Dorian Gray whenever I was somewhere with decent connection. But because I don't want the ideas to go to waste, I think I'm going to do it now.

Since today is the first of September, and I start school in 8 days, this month's theme will be:


//High School TV Shows/Movies//

Dazed & Confused
Ghost World
Freaks & Geeks
My So-Called Life
Twin Peaks
The Virgin Suicides
Easy A
10 Things I Hate About You
Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
Charlie Bartlett
The Wonder Years
Heavenly Creatures
River's Edge

I've also curated a little venn diagram of the color scheme according to school colors of all the little things that connect to high school in my head including just everything from Jordan Catalano's song "Red", convertibles, cheerleaders, Lindsay Weir, Angela Chase and Grease. Ah.. this is going to be a wonderful month. 

(Here's the venn diagram, but um..I couldn't use a scanner, so it's not clear)

So, September's going to be exciting!